 21 September 2009
It's 9:55 PM already.______, Sure, so you scold me for every single wrong note i play and every single thing i can't get right. You scold me for going online to find someone to borrow a musical stand from. You scold me for going online to find someone to be my page turner. You scold me for wasting my time when i'm not practicing when all i wanted to do was take a break and study my scores carefully so that i will not make the same mistake again. You simply go, "what do you think of it" when i let you hear me play once through the whole piece. You can't tell when i'm trying harder and harder every single time. You can't tell how much i want to make you feel proud of me. You can't tell how much effort i put in for every note that is produced. You can't tell how badly i want this. You can't tell how badly i want to do well. So now i end up in tears and blame myself for not getting this and that and this and that right. So you know what. I'm not going to care about it anymore. I'm not going to blame myself anymore. I'm not going to care if i screw up my voice tomorrow anymore. And then there's bio test tmrw and since i've got no mood to study right now i shall not. And even if i fail my test this time and all my previous efforts go down the drain, i'm not going to blame myself anymore. Because you make me end up this way. Ps: I'm sorry i can't sing right now. I'm sorry. With love, Me |
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